This is what it feels like to grow old.
This is what it feels like to grow old.
It’s not so bad being the worst player on the team. Just means you have a lot of room for improvement as long as you’re willing to learn. Honestly it’s one of my favorite situations to find myself in. “Oh I suck. How can I get better?”
Hot take: All criteria used to classify ideas and objects into distinct categories can eventually break down. The only reason to pursue the creation of classification systems is to facilitate communication. If we get to a point where we start throwing chairs at each other I’d argue were no longer willing to communicate, and so arguing about whether something is “this” or “that” is no longer a priority. The priority should become attending to the mental and emotional wellbeing of the individuals in the absence of labels.
I don’t think solid state batteries provide as much benefit in smaller devices.
Pachycephalasaurus has always been on of my favorites.
maybe I probably killed him
You didn’t kill him, the cancer did. You were there supporting him.
I was on morphine duty when my grandpa died two years ago and it was rough. I gained a massive respect for hospice workers and the mental fortitude they have in order to work in that environment.
My grandpa had ptsd nightmares from the Korean War his whole life and my biggest fear was that while he was dying he’d be trapped in one of those. I drove myself crazy trying to interpret his twitches and mumbles as some sort of actionable message he was sending.
I stepped outside for a bit and imagined what he would say if he were conscious, and I’m sure it would’ve been something like “Who cares if I’m having a nightmare? Even if I am it’s not your responsibility to fix it. I’ll just ride it out and it’ll be over.” And so I went back in and just sat there quietly, occasionally making remarks or observations, talking about what I might be doing in the next few weeks or months.
I’m really glad your mom got to have that moment. Whether or not he heard her and was responding, I hope the timing gave her some peace.
I have to imagine that when you die you get to experience what it feels like to let go of all your pain, and I bet that feels pretty great.
My dad believed in “god” and died of melanoma after it got into his lymphatic system, then to his brain, and finally his spinal fluid.
My step mom recalled a conversation she had with him in the hospital after a 2nd brain surgery where she said she was angry with God and couldn’t believe he would allow this to happen to my dad instead of a worse person. He said something like “it’s fine that this happening to me, I’m already saved. Other people still need more time.”
I’ve never been a big fan of modern christianity since it strays so far from the fundamental teachings of love, but I always admired my dad’s ability to act in a way that aligned with his beliefs about the goodness life.
I really don’t care if there’s an “afterlife” or not. I just hope people can find something in this life that gives them the courage to fight for life but also eventually accept death.
The world is a fucked up place, we’re lucky that we can still find a way to enjoy it in whatever capacity we can.
I will irrationally choose to believe that your dad will find exactly what he’s looking for when he passes.
If you ever want to talk about anything I’m here for you in whatever capacity an internet stranger can be.
Ah, your interpretation makes sense to me.
I think any religion that would claim to help people win the lottery is highly sus. Although most religions I’m familiar with are explicitly against personal financial gain as a terminal goal.
Yes, but once again I can tell that you’re making some assumptions that are preventing any sort of meaningful conversation.
What do you mean by “selfish person”? Everyone I’ve met is selfish to some degree.
If a person claims to follow a religion, but doesn’t follow that religion’s teachings, are they actually following the religion?
I think your question makes a lot of assumptions that prevent it from being answered in a meaningful way. Are you asking what a hypothetical person’s religion says that person should do if they’re not given the material help that they ask for?
You’re all over the place, but I personally believe the biggest issue is people look at economic systems and ask things like “how can we maximize our production and consumption power?”
The “solution” is for everyone to come to an agreement on how much of something is “enough” and work forward from that baseline. This is incredibly difficult because people have different priorities, and getting people to agree on how much food, fuel, and infrastructure should be produced and consumed per capita would be a huge challenge. Capitalist economic systems allow people to more easily distance themselves from the moral problem of greed by saying things like “If I can make $5,000 that means I earned the right to consume $5,000 worth of goods.” But the real world “value” of making $5,000 from construction work on housing is vastly different than the value produced from selling a $5,000 NFT.
I think the questions you’re asking require the oversimplification of the real world to the point where even if someone gave you an “answer” it would be close to meaningless. Specifically, not everyones looks at changing geographic locations through a lens of pure economics.
There would still be class, but it would be based on things like social status and education instead of financial status.
More accurately there is no reality where “everyone is rich”. If everyone had equal wealth there would be no financial distinction that would allow you to classify “rich” or “poor”.
Good luck ever defining “good”.
I’d probably commission some art of Shadow the Hedgehog on a motorcycle holding a gun. The license plate on the motorcycle would say “ALL0FM3”. I feel like he’d appreciate that.
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You’re a big guy.
But yeah I totally agree. I still feel mortal fear in my daily life, especially in dangerous scenarios.
But isn’t that what the ultimate high would feel like? In order to look forward to dying you have to be able to look forward to limit experiences and bad trips, which is insane.
I just hope that if I die in a violent accident I’m listening to “Last Surprise” from the Persona 5 soundtrack because I would really appreciate that.
Not everyone can live a “good” life by your definition of good, but they can live a good life by their definition of good.
Current generations realize that what older people are trying to sell them is a scam, and they’re working on building a new better reality based on their fresh perspective on what reality is.
You can look at religion through many lenses, but at the end of the day religion is just an unprovable fiction we choose to believe because it’s how we want the world to work. My belief that if you want to live a good life you should do unto others as you would have them do unto you is religious. Game theory and my life experiences support my belief, but it is ultimately an unprovable belief because of Hume’s Guillotine and the fact that my definition of “good life” is subjective.
It’s 100% possible that I’m just tricking myself into thinking helping other people is good and makes me happy, but I will still choose to believe.
Nah. But reason and logic are just human constructs that you’ll get to let go of when you die. The process of being born is indescribable for me. I think the process of dying will also be indescribable by definition.
That’s super cool, I’ve wanted to do something similar like this but never have had the opportunity.